For some peculiar reason I felt poetic last night, and started scrawling away. My thoughts drifted to how I've struggled with 'depression' (I use this term lightly, I don't consider myself depressed) and how a lot of who I am today was shaped by my first love, Lauren. We were together for about two years, and have been apart for about the same now, and though I consider myself 'over' her, I naturally still a great deal of emotion as far as she's concerned.
Lauren's Lament by James Burgess
An unbearable image, a mental blow,
my hands stained and mind engraved.
The curse I bear, the scar I show,
that final spiteful gift you gave.
Utter devotion, love uncompromising,
by my side, serenity, nothing to want for.
You had everyone tricked, your halo blinding,
and when fell your mask, made me suffer.
Not enough to simply desert,
dragged through torture, to what end?
Blind to the evil, blind to the hurt,
To you my queen, my every fibre I would lend.
If only I listened, my escape was mapped,
your every plot was pointed out.
But I did not believe, for I was trapped,
I did not believe, for I had no doubt.
The shackles released.
The mist cleared.
The peace I knew ceased,
and my anguish reared.
I see now, I am the architect of my own hell,
for they mean nothing, my good intentions.
Each memory, each action I retell,
they grew upon your heinous foundations.
Escaping my own mental underworld,
I discovered the truth, it was but a product.
I saw reason behind, the darkness unfurled,
the design was foreign, it was of your construct.
With every memory of you, I burn,
and is it any wonder why?
But I must remember, I must learn,
That you are the cause, and not I.
Well, with ideas for Jimothy comics pouring out of me right now, I've gone and started a little comic strip for him. It's called "The Life and Times of Jim" and is mostly just an illustrated reason to giggle. His character has already defined itself through the first few images and drawing style along with it.
Well, side-by-side with Life and Times, I'll be starting on a few spin-off series focusing on either interests of mine or aspects of my life. The idea is that Life and Times will be kept generic, and any speciality humour will be kept to it's own catagory. So for example, if you're a Runescape fan, I'm already working on Jimothy does Runescape. Here's a sneak-peak:
All of the images will be posted onto my DeviantART page, and I'll occasionally update here with Jimothy-related news, but if you think he'll give you a chuckle, go and follow me on DeviantART.
Having worked out I wanted to try my hand at comedy, I started writing a list of things I want to do. Every passing fancy. I decided I'd try everything I thought off, and if I lost interest in it, I'd stop. Try *everything* I can think off and stick with *everything* that keeps me interested.
So, this brings me to one of the items on that list. draw some cartoons. Oddly enough, starting a blog was on there too, et viola. I started scribbling. A terrible pikachu having battery problems scrawl. I scrapped the idea of drawing, I wasn't very good. It didn't bother me, I just figured it wasn't for me, no problem, next list item. I wrote some stories, and gave up.
I decided to revisit drawing, feeling like drawing very simplistic pictures, more to illustrate and add depth to stories than show them. This is where Jimoth was born. With some inspiration from Tailsteake's Ribby from 1/0 (above) I boiled it down to the main features you'd want to illustrate with, eyes, mouth, hands and body. So, that's all Jimothy's wound up with. I got to thinking of a little comic strip to draw him onto, and my mind began to wander into a comedy routine working as a comic strip, after all they're both comical.
I figured the best thing to do for my drawings would be illustrations of my comedy. One of the routines I'm writing, about an evening down the pub, made a great place to start. With a drop of colour, and a shadow for depth, and I knew I'd struck gold. A clean illustration of my comedy, in comic-strip form.
The same reasons that gave birth to Jimothy, taking things I want to do, and finding a way I want to do them in, are what's starting this blog. This blog was originally about a game I was writing, but that I gave up on. I still want to write a blog, so, putting it hand-in-hand with everything else, here it is.
"Do what you enjoy, not what's easy." - Me, just now.
I just Googled* that quote to see where I heard it, and I can't find any info, so, because I believe unwaveringly that Google is all-knowing, means I just made it up, also, I found an interesting page called "Hate Small Talk? These 5 Questions Will Help You Work Any Room" that if you take out the business-related slant on it, is actually fairly sound.
* For the spell-checker's sake, yes, Google can now be used as a verb, complete with past (Googled) present (to Google) and active (Googling) tenses.
For some peculiar reason I felt poetic last night, and started scrawling away. My thoughts drifted to how I've struggled with 'depression' (I use this term lightly, I don't consider myself depressed) and how a lot of who I am today was shaped by my first love, Lauren. We were together for about two years, and have been apart for about the same now, and though I consider myself 'over' her, I naturally still a great deal of emotion as far as she's concerned.
